For sometime now

For sometime now...
I will avoid
driving up that parking lot
and looking down at the city

For sometime now...
I will desist
sitting by the window
of my favorite coffee place

For sometime now...
I will resist
looking at the seat next to mine
in the car

For sometime now...
I'll close my eyes
When I pass "our house"
on that road out of the city

For sometime now...
I'll check madly
to see if you're ok
to see if you still think of me
to see if you want to talk to me...

After sometime...
You'll be with me
Or I'll make all this a habit
Forever....